Thursday, April 29, 2010

I am feeling Better...

....both physically and emotionally.
Time will heal

I have wanted to avoid posting about this. But wondered if journalling would make me feel better. I don't know.

I suffered a miscarriage on Tuesday.
I was 9 weeks in.
I admit when I found out I was pregnant, I did cry at this surprise.
After a night of pondering-over, I was rather glad. Happy. Excited.

We have had names for him. For her. But I really think it was a her.
Silly H even talked about bringing her to New York for next New Year's Eve.

And now...All's a void.

Honestly, I feel a sense of emptiness....

14 comments:

Anonymous said...

hey. take care okay? speak to you soon.

-mk

stay-at-home mum said...

{{HUGS}} It's hard, and you will always think about it.

May you find peace and acceptance in your hearts.

mott said...

aii...

hug hug hug.

wish i cud say something clever. problem is, i'm not clever at all.

BIGGER HUG.

Mum in Miri said...

Time will heal. Take Care.

Irene said...

take care. hmmm...

Bryan and Brandon's Mama said...

Awwww I'm so so sorry to hear about this. Did you feel better after blogging about this? Miscarriage is always tough. I suffered one myself 7-8 weeks in plus it was my 1st pregnancy so I know exactly what you were (are) going through. Look at it this way, it's Nature & God's way of making sure that you get a healthy baby because in the first place, something was genetically not right. If you're keen on getting another baby, rest for 2-3 months and try again because once you've gone through this, my ob-gyn told me that the success rate of carrying a healthy baby to term after this increases by over 90%! Rest well and take care. Try not to think of "What Would Have Beens". *HUGS & KISSES*

bp said...

I'm so sorry to hear this. HUGS for you, NM. Take good care now.

Mamapumpkin said...

*Hug* Agree with PL, God's way of preventing a weak foetus from continuing. I've had 3 miscarriages myself. The next try after a miscarriage is usually succesful cuz the body is primed with leftover pregnancy hormones. Just keep going & join my club. Girls are awesome & they care so much about family and will always come back to you. I have a friend like you with 2 big boys, just got pregnant this year and she was actually depressed because it wasn't planned but I just know that all that will change once the baby is born. Even now, my baby is growing up too fast! Wish I could freezeframe time!

Get well soon, rest & smile. Whatever will be, will be. I shall pray for you to join the land of sleepless nights in the next 1-2 years, haha.

DQ said...

Sorry to hear about it. I'm sure things will work out right with the next pregnancy. Cheers!

Kit said...

I'm sorry to hear about this. I can imagine how excited you felt when you found out. Journalling does help to release the sadness/emptiness. Crying helps a lot too.

Not sure of your religious beliefs - if it were me, I'd go through a little memorial ceremony on my own (or with Hubby) with a prayer and flowers and baby stuff to acknowledge that this little person was here, even for a while.

Just reach out for your boys when you feel down ok? Or Hubby. Hugs to you and take care.

wen said...

i am so sorry to hear that... May u have the strength to overcome this.. take good care

NomadicMom said...

MK - Hey. Am Better already. Will call you one of these days. Otherwise, see you end May.

SAHM - It IS hard. Just have to accept and go on.

Mott - Thanks for the hug.
Sometimes. It's not the "saying something"...but more of listening. So thanks for listening, or in this case reading.

Mum in Miri - Yes. Agree with you that Time does heal.

Irene - Thanks.

Bryan and Brandon's Mama - It is true...the thinking of the "what would have been". Makes me sadder...

bp - Thanks.

MamaPumpkin - I can't really think right now...if I want to try for another baby. I am sooooooooo scared if another miscarriage happens. I'm not sure I can take it emotionally.

DQ - Taking one day at a time now..and donwan to think about anything...

Kittycat - Am still coming to terms with the whole scenario. Still trying to accept.

Wen - Thanks...surely I will. Just takes time lor.

laundryamah said...

OMG! I just saw this..how are u?? Sorry la was away..haven't been reading blogs..

NomadicMom said...

Laundryamah - It's OK....

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