Donno why... but I did... and burst out crying.
Donno whether it is the alignment of the moon and stars or what.
No. Not over the silly scrapbooking comments from H. He was working till late last night.
Who else can make me go gila other than the boys?
I supposed it wasn't anything extraordinary wrong that they did. It was just be SNAPPING.
I had told them NO more computers nor games after dinner, as they HAD been playing the whole of yesterday. They agreed. After dinner, they practised their instruments. Good boys, right?
Then S1 asked if he could watch telly...and I said Yes, provided that it be turned-off at 8 PM as they need to wind-down for half an hour before bedtime at 8.30 PM. At 8 PM, I sorta told them it is 8 PM already...and they should get ready for bed, read their books etc. BUT when I came out of my room at 8.30, both were at the computers. I just snapped!
Usually, I would nag, scold, scream etc. But this time, I just broke down and cried.
Is it soooooooooooooo difficult for them to just give me that liiiiiiiiittle bit of respect and follow instructions?
Am just soooo00000000000 tired of this thankless job of wanting the best for them. It would be great if I could just NOT care. Don't care if they have enough sleep. Don't care if they eat well. Don't care if they end up to be road sweepers or shit pourers. If I don't give a shit, then I won't be upset or hurt anymore.
12 comments:
Maybe you're too tired and frustrated. Everyone goes through this - even me, as a FTWM whom is barely home. What's more when you are a committed SAHM. Just remember, some days you're the pigeon, some days you're the statue! Hope you feel better soon *hugs*
Aiyo!! Boys are like that la. Dont take it personally. I think I have gone past that phase. Maybe its that time of the month :P
Sayang....Sayang....Come-come....*hug-hug*
Can kinda empathize how u feel. I'm almost getting there, nagging and them not listening to me. With my younger one, I can tolerate more since he's only 3. But with my older one, I really expect more from her, so I can imagine if they are as old as your kids, I would expect even more respect and understanding too. Sigh, I used to dislike mothers who expect gratitude from their kids (u know, like those super self sacrificial moms who always pity themselves). But now I know why moms feel like that now!
KL
Ah... I normally feel like that when the aunty is coming. It would completely drain me out, this thankless mothering job. I did some checking online, and found that Calcium is supposed to help with those nasty hormones. Been taking them, and this month, so far, I only blew up (and not in mega proportion) once. The day b4 Aunty came. Normally it's at least 7-10 days of screaming.
So... worth a try? Plus, it'll help us all prevent osteo, if anything!
sigh..you poor dear. Sometimes it gets like that, when you expect them to have known better.
I feel the same as KL, as in the younger one will usually 'get away with it' because he's only 3. But then ofcourse the older one will feel that it's 'peen sum'. And I always say 'You are older, you should know better!' It really drives me up the wall when they don't listen to me. I tell them that it's not what they did that makes me mad but the fact that they ignore me and I have to say it so many times! Sigh.
D
Excerpt from an article titled 'Living with Teenagers':
"...For many of us, their adolescence coincides with our mid-life crisis. So we're having a mega-meltdown, with hormones attached, just as our kids are going through something scarily similar."
So it's nooooooooooormal!!
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Once a while I also feel like that! Just snap! But I feel better after the outburst! I guess the stress, emotion built inside just getting to get out, and after that it will be alright.
It is hard to take care of the family and work at the same time, but remember, if we did not do it, no one else would and no one care. So dont worry, your kids know that you are great mom and will learn to appreciate you better. Just give yourself a break sometimes, maybe get yourself a spa or facial, or window shopping.
I so feel for you with my girls! Especially my youngest one who just doesn't seem to care no matter how I scream & shout at her. It's in this ear & out the other. They just don't realise how anxious we are about them. Or are we just over-reacting? Sigh... don't feel so bad. You are not alone.
aiyo...si-mall si-mall matter leh...actually hor...arent u kinda used to them liddat?? Don't get too worked up la...I think it's just PMS laa..cheer up!
Bryan and Brandon's Mama - I think hor, most of the time, I am the statue! Seldom the pigeon lah!
SAHM - I know that boys are like that... just that I must be a bit gila on that day.
Mamapumpkin - That's all I need! Thanks.
KL - EXPECTATION. I think that's the main culprit. We expect them to behave a certain way when they will not!!! HOw like that?
Mott - But PMS wasn't the culprit wor. This is post leh.. Oh yeah. Have been forgetting to take my calcium and Evening Primrose Oil...
AllThingsPurple - But they never know better one. That's why so sien...
D - Yeah. Why do they like to IGNORE their mothers ah??
g - *sigh* and it is just starting. Still a long way to go...
Rose - Yeah. Like floodgates opening...once i let it out, then better I guessed.
DQ - Sometimes I wonder is it that they LOVE to hear my screams? Tell nicely cannot one wor... Must wait till I shout and scream. Why?
Laundryamah - You always so coooool one lah. Everything also okay!
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